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[Dec. 22nd, 2004|01:10 pm] |
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i decided that i don't like this LJ.....so go back to my old one bitches...click here |
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[Jul. 16th, 2004|09:15 pm] |
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| | Let's Get It Started- Black Eyed Peas | ] |
today was really lazy. i wanted to wake up at like noon cuz i don't have cheer and i told my dad three times last night that i didn't have practice yet he comes into my room and wakes me up around 8:30 or 9 this morning asking if i had practice. damn it. anyways, i spent the morning watching infomercials and the style channel cuz thats the only thing on. so after laying on my bed for hours figuring out what to do, i go and take a shower cuz who doesn't love random showers during the day? so then my mom comes home and we go to pick up my sister and then come home. so then we all pack our stuff cuz my parents and my aunt are going to stockton and my sis and i are staying with my aunt. we go eat at el pollo loco then we get dropped off at my aunts and here i am sitting in front of my cousins computer typing all of this and watching Cold Mountain which is pretty damn good so far. ok im out...
<3 Gayle |
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[Jun. 6th, 2004|06:50 pm] |
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| | s club 7- Never Had a Dream Come Ture (wow...old song..) | ] |
Lots of things are going through my head right now. I saw someone this morning, someone that once revolved around my world just 2 months ago. I mean i know that i broke his heart, but seeing him for the first time after breaking up with him just kills me for some reason. I mean i know that i've moved on, even though i don't yet have a boyfriend, but for some reason, looking at him just sparked something in my heart and makes me question myself if i made the right decision. am i supposed to feel this way? i don't understand and to be completely honest, i'm confused. but seeing him really makes me feel as if i made the wrong decision and i broke up for my own selfish pleasures..i'm so confused!!! |
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[May. 29th, 2004|09:51 pm] |
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wow, it'd amazing how fast freshmen year has gone by. i mean, it feels like just yeasterday i was worried about not finding my classes, or being late to school, or even not finding any friends. life seems so easy then..i didn't have to worry about people i've had not-so-perfect relationships with or whose every flaw seems to stick out and make someone so unbelieveably annoying. At least in elementary i knew the type of people i would be dealing with. if someone were to yell at me, i would probably know what was wrong with them if it wasn't in their usual nature to do so. i was protected and watched over, never harmed or hurt. But now, i've got more freedom, more room to be my own person and experience things on my own. i have to face people whom i barely know anything about every single day. i have to listen to this huge amount of drama coming from people i now nothing about. it amazes me as to how i see these people everyday, yet i know nothing about them. but then again, you cross those few exceptions that you thought you knew everything and anything about them, and you realize, you don't know them at all. well, back to my thought for today, the time has come to close this certain chapter of my life with yearbook signing and the usual "K.I.T."s and "see you next summer"s, but for some reason this year seems more emotional for me to do. some people come up to me and ask me to sign their yearbook just for the heck of signing it, and i'm stuck into this situation of writing something nice about someone, yet i barely even know them. i mean how much do i really know about the smart girl in my math class or the quiet one in the back of religion? actually, how much do any of us know about each other...? i'll tell you what...barely anything. what am i to do in that type of situation? or even worse, what if someone you've had a bad start with or gotten into a fight with and haven't really resolved your differences asks you to sign their yearbook, what are you to do? you can't say no, but you can't really think of anything nice to say either. In a nutshell, what i'm really trying to say is how am i supposed to go through yet another year with people who barely even know me, and pretend that everything is alright? i mean when my mom got that notice about the risk of having to move because of state budget cuts and stuff like that, i thought of it as an opportunity to start over...again. begain fresh and maybe for once be happy with who i am and the people i hang out with. i mean ya there are those people who you love and are the greatest friends, but no one can survive on those couple of friends alone. i guess what i'm really trying to say is that i want true friends..is that so much to ask?
P.S. Melissa i <3 you, and thanks so mcuh for being the wonderful and beautiful friend that you are, really, i can't thank you enough for being there for me. |
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[May. 27th, 2004|09:30 pm] |
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do you ever get that feeling as if you are losing some of your very close friends? it's as if you knew someone so well, and as it turns out, you barely know them at all and they've become these crazy characters you can't seem to relate to. it's a terrible feeling, for all of you who haven't gone through an experience like this because its as if one side of you is saying you have to move on...meet new people and begin a "new chapter" in your life. But then again, there is the other side that's saying you've known these people all of your life and no one will ever be able to relate to you the way these people have, i mean they've seen you grow up. i just don't know what to do anymore, i'm really confused. But i really hope that things will work out for the best..no matter what that really is... |
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[May. 18th, 2004|08:50 pm] |
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| | All By Myself-Celine Dion (haha Carolina!) | ] |
I'm pretty pissed off at some people, to be completely honest. I hate it when people only seem to be nice to you, or talk to you if you are seen with someone that's considered "in." i mean, what's up with that?! Are you that superficial that you can't seem to freakin talk to me because you scared of the people that might see you?!?! i don't understand, are these people racist, hate me, or just plain shallow?!?! These people seriously need a life and stop trying to be someone they just aren't. Stop trying to fit into the "popular" sterotype you think you are, and get a life! I wish you knew who you guys were cuz it's so completely pathetic that you don't realize how completely superficial you really are. I'm not mad that you guys don't consider me your friend, because i could really care less, you're not worth my time. Just stop being fake and acting like you know people and maybe people will actually like you in the future... |
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[May. 18th, 2004|08:48 pm] |
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Hey guys! heres my new livejournal!!! so yup yup yup, here's my life... |
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